My boyfriend is leaving tonight at 8pm to go to Atlanta for a week before he starts school. Actually, school will have already started but technically he's only missing 2 days of it. You know how college starts on a weird ass day like Wednesday...he only has class through Thursday so he's really not missing much except for the stupid ice breakers and introductions the professors like to do. EW...i hated those.
So yes...I am having very selfish feelings. I don't want him to go to Atlanta. I'm going to miss him so much and its so abrupt for me. He's gonna come back Sunday and then go straight to school...so it's like today (when he comes by to say bye), is a real goodbye for a while and its sad. And it doesn't help that its all gloomy outside.
Of course, I would never say "I don't want you to go." Even though it's the God's honest truth. I don't want him to go. It's been so fun since he's been here for these 2 weeks. Going out to eat, renting movies, going to our little spot in the midnight hour. It was relaxing...he relaxes me and I feel so at ease when I'm "in us."
Oh how I will miss it........

i am content. no job yet. but still content. my boyfriend is great. i am content. i'm back to writing music. more content. i finally got my room back together. Put my canopy up, got my wire bins together so things are organized.
He's leaving next week...i try not to think about it. I feel closer to him when he's here and I'm more apt to getting mad at him over stupid stuff (because I miss him and go through withdrawls) when he's away at school. Damn him for not graduating at the same time as me. :-(
Well that's all I have to say right now. Its super hot in the house because my gma rarely turns on the air even though it b like 99 degrees in the house.

So you all didn't think I was serious....I'm back.

Well, today I'm just waiting for my boyfriend to bring my stuff from my apt in Champaign. He was supposed to have left already, of course he has not. I called him and he's like he is resting because he's tired and hasn't packed yet.
Anyway, I can't wait until he gets out here. I really miss him. Yet again I have thrown myself into another long distance relationship. At least this won't be for very long. He doesn't graduate from our school until December...so that's about 6 months of hell I will have to go through.
I am scared though there's a lot to deal with when it comes to long distance relationships. I'll be working (hopefully), he'll be in class and then working at night...so when will we talk??? AHhhhhh...I don't wanna think about it.

hi...so i'm back in full effect.

Yesssss...a lot has happened but i'll just give you the jist of it.
1. Graduated from college
2. I'm 22 now
3. Have a new bf...will post pics later.
4. Have no job!!!!! It's like i didn't even graduate.
5. I moved back home.

So yes. Every freaking day since I've been home, I've been applying for job. I've been applying everrrrrywhere!! Temp agencies, places I don't wanna work...The only thing I haven't done was apply to a food service place. Not that I have anything against it...i just don't wanna do it.

Soo..today i got yelled at, had a car then didn't have a car, and was awakened at 8am! My granny has been really getting on my nerves lately. I understand that she is old, and hates the fact that she can't be independent, but i mean don't take it out on me. I hate that.

Anyway, my relationship is great. He's really nice to me. I really care about him. He really cares about me. It's nice. You know, I've never had anyone try to please me. I'm not talking sexually either. I mean just like when I wanna go out, he'll take me out. Or he'll suggest dates for us to gon on. He keeeps his word too. Which is THE BEST thing you could ever have!! Ladies, don't settle for a man who tells you he's gonna do stuff for you and doesn't do the shit. That's whack as hell. Excuse my language, but for real. If he says he's gonna take you to dinner, and then says he "forgot." UM NO! He didn't! He's just an asshole!

Anyways, how have you all been. I've missed you guys. I've got like 20 friends, who probably don't even remember me.

Anyways...I have pictures for you all. I don't think I've ever posted pictures. FUN FUN!!

Pics after the ( jump )

I have many more pictures but I won't overload you now!